Have you ever compared yourself so much to others you believed they were better than you?
Growing up I was ready to do so much!!
No one could convince me as an adult, I would encounter fears and doubts about myself.
As an adult I thought you were full of courage and had all the answers (laughing at my ignorance).
My reality was the opposite of what I had imagined.
Doing life without a manual was challenging.
Obsessing over succesful people did not build my confidence one bit ( looking back I only assumed they were successful..lol)
I found myself hiding from the world.
Some where in between 20-30 years old, I was battling shame.
It was my mission in life to appear put together, full of courage and faith.
My life was to be presented as being one of “Them.”
You know them….
The educated, well speaking, super intelligent, confident, great wardrobe, new vehicles and so much more.
Over in my world, it was the opposite.
Everything in me surrendered to shame for not being one of them.
Desiring to be accepted, I created a false persona.
Living my life for approval would be painful, and lonely.
There was some thing internally wrong with me and I needed to deal with it.
Looking inside yourself is not an easy task.
Being honest with yourself can be frightening, but I was determined to be free.
No lies here, it took many hours, loads of tears and prayer to break out of the false identity I had created.
The journey to discovery was both painful, exciting, and powerful.
Becoming my authentic self, revealed my root of rejection.
Pulling up the root of rejection opened a flood gate of healing.
My inner healing catapulted me into reality.
Being able to see clearly, led to great understanding that even “Them” had their own struggles.
No one person has it all together.
I no longer compare my world to others, nor myself to others.
Once upon a time, I wanted to be them, but I am so fulfilled being “ME.”
Showcasing your best self, is one of the keys to a simple life.
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