The definition of drown is to die under water, or other liquid suffocation; to destroy or get rid of by, or as if by, immersion.
It was my time to jump, my time to dive into a deeper place, but what I did not calculate was just how deep it would be. In my mind I had jumped many times and certainly it would not be too much more than what I was accustom too. I was wrong, so very wrong. Here I am already in the deep end, still able to see my way as I moved with a more precise strategy to get to a place where I could eventually stand up.
My focus was on being able to place my feet on the ground but that was not going to happen any time soon. I had extended myself beyond my capacity and began to drown. I could hear everything around me but I was unable to call for help, it was not important to seek help. The need to breathe was my only challenge now, I had to figure out how I would get the right pattern that would allow me to balance in this dimension. I am really drowning, and this time I am going to allow it to happen.
Everything in me wants to be back in the place where I am able to manage, be familiar and move freely, but I must stay here in the place of dying. You see it’s not that I am literally drowning, it’s the reality of me being immerse into a new realm of producing and execution and the depth of all that is unfamiliar.
Each moment I stay in this dimension causes my old thinking, my old cycles, my old habits, my old patterns to completely be submerged and destroyed. If I am to be successful from this jump I made, I must not live in the past. I am drowning intentionally!
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